Yes, I am a virgin. But sex is something I think about often. I don't know why. I have no idea why I'm such a sexual person, but I am and there's nothing I can do about it. I actually find it strange that I'm still a virgin because sex is something that is always on my mind. So much so that I've created in my mind what perfect sex is. I don't want to go into detail. Seriously. BUT THIS IS MY BLOG, RIGHT!? So I continue.
My idea of sex is that it's something... special. I know I sound like such a female right now. It's not something to be given out to just anyone because this guy is hot or that girl really wants to fuck you. It should be an intense connection between two people who love each other deeply. I know this sounds like a 'the talk' you got from your parents but really why do people give out sex like it's candy? Do people really feel like sex is worthless or not that big a deal? As I was saying... It's supposed to be an expression of just how much you love that person. It's supposed to be heart wrenchingly emotional, it's supposed to be life changing, it's supposed to be fucking mind blowing. Ok!? I'm a virgin yes, but I know what great sex is! It's not supposed to be just sex. It's supposed to be the art of making love. I fucking love the phrase. I can't wait for the day when I can tell a man 'let's make love.'
Before I go into what my idea of great sex is, I want to talk about what turns me on. When is comes to sex, it takes a lot more than words to turn me on. We can talk about sex sure, but it won't turn me on as much as seeing and touching will. Subtle touches can do the trick. Simply rap your arms around my waist and I will be turned on. I like it when a guy comes up behind me and wraps his arms around me while kissing my neck. That is so hot. Maybe give my breasts a little squeeze. I like it when he gently rubs my thigh, especially my inner thigh oh my goodness.. And it really doesn't take much to get me wet if you can touch me. If you put your hands between my legs, I'm pretty much yours. Start rubbing my pussy and I don't know what happens, but my legs automatically spread wider and I start feeling all sorts of euphoria. I won't even try to stop you. Hearing a guy moan for me drives me crazy as hell. And oh my goodness, if he gets a hard on for me and I've yet to even touch him... = panties soaked. Don't get me wrong, I'm not saying I'd let any guy do these things to me. This is future reference for my future boyfriend. *Ahem*...
And now, what exactly is my idea of great sex? This is embarrassing as f.u.c.k. I can't even tell you. I should password protect my blog, really lol. I honestly think I'm some sort of freak when it comes to sex because of how I want it. I wouldn't say that I'm kinky. I just want it a certain way... Ok I'll stop beating around the bush; I've often described my idea of sex as 'unbelievable passionate, but rough.' *Sigh* I can't imagine what you guys are thinking right now, but there I said it. :| No I don't mean I want to be choked and throat fucked. Not at all. I mean I want him to kiss me gently and passionately. I want him to kiss my body tenderly. I want him to take care of me in all my secret places and make me feel like I'm the most precious thing in the world. I want him to whisper sweet things in my ear, with a naughty twist. I want him to bite my lips. I want him to hold my wrists down with its his turn to be pleased. I want him to tell me that it'll be okay. I want him to push himself inside me slowly, inch by inch while he's kissing my lips with as much passion as humanly possible. I want him to muffle my whimpers with his tongue as he takes over my body with his cock. I want him to moan my name and tell me how much he loves me while he roughly rams himself into by body. I want him to tell me how good my pussy feels around his hard cock while I straddle and ride him. I want to be tied up while he dominates me. I want him to control me. But I want him to please me as well. I want to taste him. I want him to taste me. I want to swallow when he orgasms in my mouth. I want to feel his hot juice flood my insides when he orgasms inside me. Wow ok, now I've gone and turned myself on with this post. That was extremely graphic. Sorry.
Some of you may be thinking, YOU FUCKING IDIOT, YOU KNOW YOU COULD GET PREGNANT!? I. know. this. Trust me, I know. Which is why I'm doing birth control research. My first time will be condomless, I don't care what anyone says. I want to experience sex 100%. He will be tested. I will be tested (though obviously I don't have anything). I will use birth control. And I'm going to fuck someone's brains out. And vice versa.
I could have been a lot more graphic. I wanted this to be long and detailed but well I've embarrassed myself enough as it is. I was trying to be gentle... *cough*
Since this post is about sex, I'm gonna find a sex song to go with this post. OK I FOUND SOMETHING. I feel like I would go crazy having sex to this song. I don't know why but it goes and I love it.
posted by loreal @ 12:49 PM